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Writing Wednesday – Should erotica writers hide?

Wednesday, November 18th, 2009

Meant to post this earlier today, but it's been one of those days, by which I mean crazy busy. In any event, a quick PerNoFiMo update. Last night I passed the 20K word mark on Whip It, which means at just a little over halfway through the month, I've already met my minimum goal. Now to see how much more I can write before November is out. If I can turn out 1500 words a night, every night, until the end of the month, I could hit 40K words. But I'd have to write at least 1500 words every night, and there in lies the challenge.

We'll see what happens. For now, I'm 20K words farther into this novel than I was two weeks ago, and that's an accomplishment as far as I'm concerned.

Now onto today's discussion topic. While reading through the Erotica Readers & Writers Association blog, I came across this post by M. Christian. The article is about the hazards of being an erotica writer and the need to protect oneself from the slings and arrows of the righteous, the intolerant, the uptight and the inhibited. Among other things, M. Christian urges the need for erotica writers to hide what they do. I can understand why he offers this advice. For erotica writers, the threats of being fired, stalked, harassed, arrested, of losing one's home or even one's children are all very real.

But...

Here's my problem with this. You can't ever hide completely, not if you want to write. You can't hide and get your stories published. You can't hide and promote your work online. You can't hide and go to signings or conventions. You can't hide and write. Because once you write those words, those awful filthy words about the most forbidden subject of sex, you've already revealed who and what you are. You have made your mark in the erotica genre. You have left evidence for others to see. Short of deleting the file and wiping the hard drive (or for you low-tech writers, burning the notebook and throwing away the pen), you can't get rid of that evidence. You did the deed. You dared to write the porn, the erotica, the smut, the whatever-the-hell-you-want-to-call-this-genre. You wrote it, and it's yours. Oh, you can use a pen name, you can promote only online, and you can demur when people ask what you write about, but still. If you write sexually explicit material, then you have already put yourself at risk for being fired, harassed, stalked, etc. Computers can be searched. Pen names can be revealed. You yourself might trip up and let slip some detail that would allow people to connect your story with your name. Even if you just write one erotica story, one steamy sexy scene, and hide it away in a dresser drawer, it's still there for someone to find and you're still going to be at risk. It's like trying to take a dip in the pool without getting wet. Even if all you do is just put your little toe in the water, you can't not get wet.

For my part, I have never hidden what it is I do. I have never used a pen name. And somehow I have never suffered any of these horror stories that I've heard about from other writers. Maybe it's because I'm not in as vulnerable a position as others are. I'm a stay-at-home mom; I can't get fired from that job! And I'm in a good, stable marriage. My husband knew from the start what I was writing. So did my parents. To this day, my mother introduces me as 'her daughter who writes porn.' My husband's family all know what I write. My friends know. Heck, even our pediatrician and my daughters' teachers know. I have never made a secret of this. And yet somehow, I'm doing okay. Maybe I've just been lucky. Maybe my own personal horror story of stalkings and obscenity charges and court cases are just around the corner waiting to happen. Who knows?

What I do know is that anyone who tells me to hide the fact that I am an erotica writer might as well just tell me to never write erotica in the first place. The consequences are dire, so don't even dare it. But telling me to not write erotica would be like telling the late Charlton Heston to not let anybody know he liked guns. To paraphrase the man himself, I will only stop writing porn when you can pry my keyboard from my cold, dead hands. Until then, risks be damned. I'm writing.

Interview up at Amanda Young’s blog today!

Friday, November 13th, 2009
I did an interview with Amanda Young over at her blog.  Stop by and take a look! Visit Amanda Young's blog here.

Writing Wednesday – E-mail is EVIL!

Wednesday, November 11th, 2009
We're now halfway through the second week of PerNoFiMo (Personal Novel Finishing Month), or as it's better known to other writers, NaNoWriMo.  So far, I've written around 11K words, more than halfway to my minimum goal of 20K, so I'm very pleased. I've discovered that I can churn out between 1200 and 1800 words without much problem, so long as I follow a few rules. First, just write, don't re-write and don't edit as you go. Remember, neither PerNoFiMo nor NaNoWriMo are about a perfect first draft. Their goal is a first draft in any crappy shape you can manage to turn out. Second, don't go back and re-read your previous day's work. A friend of mine, Scarlett Greyson, mentioned that she made the mistake of doing this and she wished she hadn't. She wanted to rewrite everything!  Again, this is not the point of PerNoFiMo or NaNoWriMo. Don't rewrite! Just get it down the first time. The next month, and the month after that and the month after that, you can rewrite to your heart's content. Finally, whatever you do, don't open your frikkin' e-mail before you sit down to write! I made this mistake last week. I just wanted to check something, but then discovered a super very important life or death e-mail that I had to answer right that second! I spent the next two hours writing one stupid e-mail, and there went all my time for writing that evening. I had to make it up the next day, and damn near killed myself trying to write 3K words as opposed to the usual 1500 or so. Anyway, that's what I've learned from PerNoFiMo/NaNoWriMo so far. What about you folks? Figure out anything interesting from all this writing?

PerNoFiMo update

Friday, November 6th, 2009
I mentioned a couple of weeks ago in a Writing Wednesday post that instead of doing NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), I wanted to do PerNoFiMo (Personal Novel Finishing Month). I've got three unfinished projects on my computer that I really need to get done, one of which was as far along at 40,000 words.  That's a lot of novel to have written and then left unfinished. So on Monday, I pulled out that 40,000 words and started adding to it.  It was a little rough at first.  I had wanted to get started on Sunday by re-reading what I had written so far, but Princess came down with the flu and I wasn't feeling so hot myself, so nothing got done that day.  I plowed into it on Monday instead, adding about 1500 words, and then spent Tuesday and Wednesday reacquainting myself with my notes and rough outline.  I've got a ton of notes still left to sort through, but I got myself far enough along to know the general direction I need to head in, and on Wednesday night I started writing again. Last night, Thursday, I made the mistake of checking e-mail before doing any writing, and spent an entire 2 hours responding to a very important e-mail, thus failing to get more than another 10 words written in the novel.  So I cleared everything off my plate today and sat down at noon to start writing again.  I got through another 3000 words, bringing me to a total of 6000 so far for the week. I'm hoping I can squeeze in another 2000 before I go to bed on Sunday night.  We'll see. Some interesting things I've discovered so far this week.  I had planned to work on this novel during the day, but I've had to spend so much time dealing with the usual e-mail and day-to-day promo and supporting work I do as a writer that I can never manage to do any actual writing.  So, I decided I would have to stay up a little later and write after the girls go to bed.  It's actually kind of nice. I climb into bed with my laptop, and just type.  It's very cozy and I can actually get 1000 words done pretty easily this way. The other thing I've discovered, or rather knew but am now actually experiencing first hand,  is that I don't need write perfectly to get this done.  If I try to write the perfect story, I will fuck myself over completely and not get anything down on the page.  Instead, I just need to type anything, and I do mean anything, that comes to mind.  I've said this before, the point of NaNoWriMo, and now PerNoFiMo, is to get as many words down on the page as possible.  Not the best words, not the exact perfect words, just as many as you can in order to rip through the first draft of the novel.  I've had to constantly remind myself of this every time I hesitate and think, "Eh, did I really mean to type that?  It doesn't sound exactly right."  It doesn't matter if what I typed is exactly right.  What matters is I typed it and now I need to move on and type other things. Hopefully, I'll do another update on PerNoFiMo next Wednesday as part of Writing Wednesday.  My goal is to get at least another 20,000 words added to this story by the end of the month, though I would prefer to write as much as 40,000 and maybe get this story done.  But any progress at this point is good progress, and right now I'm already 6000 words ahead of the game. Write on, dudes!

Writing Wednesday – NaNoWriMo?

Wednesday, October 28th, 2009
November is coming up fast, and with it, National Novel Writing Month, or as it's better known, NaNoWriMo. This is the first year since I've been writing seriously that both kids have been in school most of the week, and I always thought that when I reached this point, I'd finally commit and do NaNoWriMo. For those of you who aren't familiar, the goal of NaNoWriMo is to write a 50,000 novel during the month of November. That's 50K words in 30 days, which works out to about 1700 words a day. It can be a bit of a challenge, unless you embrace the idea behind NaNoWriMo, which is not to write well, but just to write period. In other words, if you slave over every paragraph, every sentence, every word, there's no way in hell you're going to write 1700 words a day for 30 days straight. But if you just throw your perfectionism to the winds and churn out the words, then hell yeah, you can get a novel written. And then, once you've finished that lousy first draft, you can go back and polish it into a better second, third, fourth or however many drafts it takes to reach the perfect finished state. But you can only get to that point if you write the lousy first draft first. So anyway, NaNoWriMo is coming, the kids are both in school most of the week, and I'm confronted with the possibility that this is the year I could finally participate in NaNoWriMo. This is the year I could knock out the first draft of a novel in a month, get the second draft done the month after that, and maybe have a finished novel ready to send out by the time Valentine's Day rolls around, or even sooner, depending on how long the rewrite/polishing process takes. And it would be great, really great, for me to do this, except I can't stop asking myself... "Could I? Should I?" I've been working since September to clean up my computers and get a new website designed and so far I've managed only to clean up the computers (though not redo the laptop from scratch, which was the ultimate goal)  and get the new blog up and running (that's a far cry from having a complete website done, I tell ya). I've still got a few days left in October to finish up that website , and then NaNoWriMo would start. But I'm not sure I want to jump into NaNoWriMo completely cold. I would prefer to have an outline worked out, a little research done... you know, I want the writing pump primed, so I'm ready to bolt once the starting gun goes off. Then there's the matter of the three unfinished writing projects still sitting on my computer's hard drive. One of them is up to 43K long. That's a lot of words to just leave sitting there unfinished. I know NaNoWriMo is all about starting and finishing a first draft, but I don't want to start a new project when I've got 3 others unfinished and one that far along. So here's what I'm thinking of doing - finish up the website by the end of the week. Then the first of November, open up that really long, sadly unfinished project and start reading and getting myself back into the feel of it. By the end of the first week, begin writing again. I think I could do 1000 words a day if I pushed myself. I won't be writing on weekends, because I just can't right now. The podcast gets recorded and produced on weekends and that's about as much as I can do and still have a family and a life of sorts. I reaize this won't fulfill that 1700 words a day I'd need to do NaNoWriMo, but then I'm not actually doing NaNoWriMo. This is more like PerNoFiMo - Personal Novel Finishing Month. So that's the goal. I could get 20K words written this way, and that would bring me closer to finishing the first draft of this novel. Then maybe I can do another 20K in December and actually finish it. Can't say for certain that 40K total will finish this particular novel, but if not, I'll do another 20K in January and maybe then we'll see. If you're doing NaNoWriMo, or some variation of it, let me know. I'd be interested in hearing who's doing it and what they hope to accomplish in the upcoming month!

Wired Hard 4 is out!

Tuesday, October 27th, 2009
Wired Hard 4: Erotica for a Gay Universe is out from Circlet Press!  My short story, When the Angels Fall, is in this one.  If you're looking for really good sci-fi m/m erotica, then pick this book up now!  You can get it just about every e-book format, from just about every e-book outlet available, with the Kindle version from Amazon.com coming soon.   Get more details here: Wired Hard 4 at Circlet.com.

Heat Flash Erotica #108 – The Tell Tale Heart

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

"Where are you going?" Donna demanded. "You love me!"

"Get off me, crazy bitch! I never said that."

The object of Donna's affection rolled out of bed, pushing her away with careless hands...

Inspired by Edgar Allen Poe's The Tell Tale Heart.

Download the episode here.

Latest releases – Mundania e-books are now on sale!

Thursday, October 15th, 2009

Last month, I podcasted four unusual stories for the Heat Flash Erotica Podcast. These were the Mundania stories, the only stories ever to appear on Heat Flash that were not science fiction, fantasy, or horror. Yes, I actually wrote four, count them, FOUR contemporary erotica stories, and they were just released for sale today in e-book format from Logical Lust Publications.


You can buy the stories here at Logical Lust, either individually for $1.99 or the entire set of four for $4.99. Not sure if you want to buy these lovely, lusty, scorching tales? Then listen to them here first on the Heat Flash Erotica Podcast! The stories are:


A Man in a Kilt - Jimmy's a rough and tumble Scotsman who thinks he can handle any woman. Then he meets Nan, a friendly domme who teaches him otherwise... (Fem domme; BDSM)


Rapacious Mrs. Horner - Diane Horner is a forty-something divorcee with a serious addiction to gay porn and painful broken heart. When her son's best friend comes onto her, what will she turn him away or eat him alive? (F/m; older woman/younger man)


Diablo - Spoiled rich kid Randall wants one thing and one thing only - Pony Boy, the hired hand at Polk's Stables, down on his knees and ready to please. When Pony Boy refuses to be tamed, will Randall break him instead? (M/m; warning - scorching hot m/m erotica but also controversial)


A Room with a View - With the economy in the toilet, Darcy Daniels has lost her job, her car, her apartment, and now her pride as she's forced to move back in with her parents. Then she discovers her old bedroom window looks right into the window of the boy next door. Is he watching her at night? Is she going to watch him? And if their fathers hate each other, do they even have a chance at getting together? (Older woman/younger man; voyeurism; sex toys; even a touch of romance in this one!)


A note about these stories: if you're looking for humor, definitely check out A Man in a Kilt and A Room with a View. If you like your erotica edgy and dangers, then go for broke with Rapacious Mrs. Horner and Diablo. And remember, you can also get all four books together in one collection, and listen to them on the Heat Flash Erotica Podcast before you buy!

Writing Wednesday – Pimping one’s self

Wednesday, October 14th, 2009

Over the summer, I spent some time trying to do a bit of promo for my work. If there's one area where I really fall down as a writer, it's promotion. Yeah, I blog and I twitter and I podcast and I do the web comic, but there are facets of promo that I don't do often enough, like participate in Yahoo groups or hold contests or send out for reviews.


So I've been thinking lately of ways I can improve my promotion plan. Yes, I have a plan, or rather, I should have a plan. I sort of have a plan, but I need to sit down and redo it and make it better - easier to execute, defined goals, etc. The problem is finding time to do all this planning of promotion and executing of promotion and still get my writing done. So I'm looking into simple tasks that I can do that won't tax my time or my brain. My initial ideas so far are...


Send out one of my books for review every Friday. I have a list of review websites, and if I just took 30 minutes each Friday, I could send these books out and maybe get a slew of reviews. It takes time to get a review done; most places take 8-12 weeks to get a review done. But if I start sending out now, I could have a ton of reviews coming my way in a couple months. That can't be bad.


Continue to blog. Right now, I'm doing at least 3 regular posts a week here and my weekly post on Oh Get A Grip. I'd like to add one more regular post to this, and then I think my blogging efforts would be complete. A good blog would (hopefully) keep people coming back for more, but a good blog has to be maintained with regular content. I want to be certain I provide that content.


Continue to cartoon. Since the start of school, I've set aside one day a week to work on the web comic, and so far I've been able to keep a regular schedule. Hopefully, with regular drawing, I'll get faster and better at producing the comic, so I won't have to spend an entire work day on it, but for now, I'm willing to spend a day to get this thing done!


Revamp the website. I've talked about this before, but now have finally started to take action on it. On Friday, I set in motion a transfer of all my domain names to GoDaddy.com, because I know GoDaddy plays nice with WordPress (it better play nice!), and because I can host multiple domain names on one hosting package. Once the domain name transfer is complete, the actual website revamp begins. I've got the domain name www.cynicalwoman.com, which I've used for years for a flash website I did way back when. I love the work I did on that, but updating a flash website is a bitch and a half for me, especially since I no longer understand the latest version of Action Script (a situation I'll need to correct very soon, it seems). I want an html website with a WordPress blog, and I want the website to combine most of my current websites - www.helenehmadden.com, www.cynicalwoman.blogspot.com, www.theadventuresofcynicalwoman.blogspot.com - into one place. I've pretty much stopped posting anything over at www.helenehmadden.com because it's too much effort to maintain a separate writing website from my personal blog. And besides, I've pretty much effectively branded myself as Cynical Woman, stay-at-home mom and erotica writer, so why not go with that?


Once the website revamp is done, I'll add to my list of promo goals. But for now, I think this is enough. Hopefully, I can get a working website up and running by Halloween. Let's see what I can do.


Now, I want all of YOU guys to tell me something. If you're a writer, what kind of promo do you do that works well for you? What promo have you done that turned out to be a huge waste of time? And readers, what kind of promo would you like to see me do? Give me some ideas of things you would enjoy, because one thing I don't want to do is annoy the crap out of readers with bad promo. (Please, please, please leave comments on this one, because I really do want to know!)

Writing Wednesday – Where do you get your ideas from?

Wednesday, October 7th, 2009

It's supposedly the question every author dreads - "Where do you get your ideas from?" And I suppose some authors dread it because it can be hard to explain the process behind brainstorming and writing and rewriting and so on. But guess what? It's not a question this writer dreads. In fact, I'd be more than happy to explain where my ideas come from.


Where do ideas come from? Everywhere and anywhere, obviously. I get my ideas from magazine articles, TV shows, other writer's books, day dreams, nightmares, and random words. I've got a million ideas flitting through my head at any given time. The problem for me is not where do the ideas come from, but how quickly can I catch them and pin them down? And then what amount of work will I have to do to bring an idea into fruition as a story.


I go through story ideas like nobody's business. At the start of each month, I have to come up with between 4-6 ideas for the Heat Flash Erotica Podcast, and I have to come up with them fast. I hate working in a void when I write, so each month I pick a theme for the upcoming month's stories. For October, I always go with some sort of horror theme, which means I just spent the entire month of September writing five horror stories, and each had to be different from the last. To make things easier, I refined my theme idea to "Lustcraft" and worked on homage stories based on the works of H.P. Lovecraft. I made a list of all the Lovecraft I enjoyed, and when a few Edgar Allen Poe story ideas snuck into the mix, I went ahead and included them too. It seemed fitting to me, since Poe was a source of inspiration for Lovecraft. Once I had a viable list of stories I could play with, I took the originals apart and had fun putting my own spin on everything from the Dunwich Horror to The Tell-Tale Heart.


But that was last month, and this is this month, which means I'm now working on November's stories. Since Thanksgiving falls within November, I decided to write about gatherings, because Thanksgiving is always when people come together (to eat turkey, if nothing else). Then I pulled out my handy-dandy notebook and came up with a list of all the kinds of gatherings I could think of - weddings, funerals, parties, spring break, migrations, spawning grounds, etc. No idea was too stupid, too vague or too boring to include. At some point, a couple of these ideas spawned more specific images, and I wrote notes about those. Over the course of the last few days, I've continued to make my list, play with ideas, and make notes until I've come up with a total of 5 story ideas for the month. Now, at this point, I'm ready to move deeper, spending a day developing each individual idea in my notebook and then when I have a slew of notes and lines of dialog and description, I'll move to the computer and start banging out a story.


I have a week, sometimes less, to write each story. I've found that if I do the prep work in my notebook, developing my idea and writing up all those notes, then when it comes time to sit down and actually write, the process is almost painless. I've managed to write entire stories in just an hour, if I do that prep work. If I don't, and the idea is still rather vague, then I may spend all week agonizing at the keyboard until I finally get the story fleshed out and onto the screen. The stories that I'm prepared to write are usually shorter and more concise, ideal for the podcast. The stories that aren't prepped tend to be longer and harder to write, though I've turned out some amazing pieces by starting with only the vaguest of ideas.


I admit, I am much better at coming up with ideas for stories than I am at coming up with ideas for art. I can write a story at the drop of a hat, but I've had a lot of times where I've sat down with my drawing pad and pencils, looked at that blank page and gone, "Duuuuuuh... what do I draw?" I've finally started keeping a little notebook to jot ideas in, using the same process I use for the podcast stories. I'll be interested in seeing how this works out over the next few months. Who knows, I may turn out more art!


If you're having trouble coming up with that initial idea, consider starting with something general first (like the monthly theme I use for Heat Flash), and then narrow it down from there. Don't reject ideas out of hand because they seem stupid or unworkable. Sometimes your brain will combine the stupid with the unworkable and come up with the masterpiece. And maybe get yourself a notebook you can scribble in, something that doesn't have to be pristine and hold only the best ideas, but can take every single crappy line your brain tosses out. All that crap is fertilizer for story ideas, and you never know what will grow out of it.


And that's where my ideas come from.